Finding the Fountain of Youth

Where did my youth go? For some, aging and wrinkles are a mere consequence of time and a life well-lived. For me, I am determined to remain a foxy lady and do my best to fight the wrath of time.

I am a 50 something, which some may regard as a  “mature” lady. Sometimes, I don’t feel as mature as my reflection. Take off the make-up, add some poor lighting with a rough day, and I clearly see the effects of father time.

Staying Young

Kitty Cat and a little botox
Time for a little botox…maybe

I am a sucker for eternal youth promised in creams, potions, and elixirs.  And anything from France (because they would know, right?). Looking back, I never appreciated my smooth skin and perky boobs and took it all for granted. Cosmetic surgery was for older people and I just assumed that I would sail through these years with ease, grace, and confidence. Fat chance.

Appreciating Youth When I Had It

I survived the 1980’s (miraculously) and emerged a responsible adult with “good genes” as I called it. I thought this was aging gracefully. Alas, 40 came (where did the time go?) and things definitely started shifting.

I remember looking at a selfie I had taken at 43 and the crepe skin on my neck and chest was undeniable. Initially, I blamed it on the lighting. How could this be happening to me? What happened to my graceful aging and nary a wrinkle?

My youth, where did it go?

Time to Turn Back the Clock

My arrogance at dismissing cosmetic surgery slowly turned into horror. I watched deep crevices form on my forehead and my pores became the size of craters. It was time. Now, I was willing to pay the price of injecting poison into my laugh lines, crow’s feet and whatever else I could zap with that miracle filler.

The Ketogenic Epiphany

When I first found keto and later carnivore, it gave me a spring in my step and a portion of my youth back. I have found the carnivore lifestyle to be healing and has made quite a difference in my skin. With my newfound vitality, the “other aspects” bothered me. I could no longer ignore the swift progress of lines and crevices and saggy eyelids.

First Stop, Plasma Skin Tightening

My first foray into anti-aging treatments was plasma skin tightening. No injections, just burning tiny little surface holes into my wrinkles. In my mind, it wasn’t as obvious as botox or fillers. Thus, it was (self) approved and ready for action.

Plasma skin tightening is the process of burning minute holes into your wrinkles, pulling them flat and stimulating collagen. It was not a pleasant experience.  And not the results I had envisioned. I needed my face to match my vibrant, youthful, happy go lucky, fly by the seat of her pants foxy girl again, damn it!

Next Stop, Botox

I was always very skeptical and suspicious of how botulism would ever make me look younger. What changed my mind was the results of a trusted friend. She didn’t look overdone, just….different, fresher and happy. With nothing to lose, I made an appointment with the lovely nurse lady. Little did I know, she was more than just a nurse, she literally helped women turn back the hands of time.

Explaining in great detail was paramount to getting the right results, I thought. My main concern, as I explained to her, was to look completely “natural”. “I’m different,” I said because I just wanted to take that rough edge off. I certainly didn’t want to look like I was void of any expression or emotion.  I just wanted my face to match my youthful energy.  

All it took was that one syringe of miracle toxin. When she handed me a mirror after my first treatment, I literally teared up. I saw for the first time in a very long time, that girl staring back at me. I could see her. And I didn’t look so mean anymore. I was softened and more vibrant. And boy, did it bring a lot of confidence back. 

Anti-Aging In Conclusion

The carnivore way of eating has done many great things for me. It has given me energy, clarity, and mental stability. Unfortunately, it can’t erase the ravages of time. Thankfully, I have found other options to take care of what the carnivore way of eating can’t. Some ladies embrace their laugh lines, wrinkles, and “fuck-you” lines. That’s not me. I want to age gracefully with smooth skin. 

Next up, regaining my perky boobs. No surgery. Instead, I am using exercise to change the way I look. Chest flys and chest presses are making all the difference in the world. Which is a welcome bonus on this bodybuilding adventure!

As a side note, the actual name of the bacteria is clostridium botulinu, which produces a toxin which of course we all know as BOTOX®

Sandra Bruand
Sandra Braund

Follow Our Adventure

Sandra started her ketogenic lifestyle two years ago which naturally morphed into the carnivore way of life.  Bodybuilding after 50 just seemed like the next step and the natural thing to take on for this rebellious nature. Because…… why not???

We want to share our journey with you.

  • Monday’s – Posting progress photos and sending them to our email list (because we are not ready to show the world our wrinkles and rolls but we will share our progress to our email list every Monday)
  • Thursdays – IG Live Q & A (that’s Instagram if your old school like Carnivore H)
  • Daily – Food and workout pics on FB and IG

About us, we are just like you, women who are struggling with aging, hormones, changing family dynamics and how it sucks to grow old. What are your fears and desires? Where do you want or need accountability in your life?

This could be anything including food addictions, maintaining consistency, time management, or just being accountable for YOU.

Have you forgotten about yourself after all these years while you’ve been taking care of everyone else?

Stay in the loop. Join our email list. We will send you our progress and if you’d like, share your journey as well.

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Sandra here and this is my menopause story. I’d like to share my experience with this bastard of a change. My intention is to lend support by sharing our individual experiences with this fucker. Please remember you may or may not encounter these unwanted side effects. And you may be able to get on with your sequel to youth perfectly intact – mentally and physically. Everyone is unique and will have a different experience. This is mine.

Denial is Not Just a River in Egypt

Totally in denial, I really thought I could outrun this bastard. In my late 40’s, I still wasn’t experiencing any real hot flashes or mood changes, per se, however if you talk to my husband, he may tell you a different story. Don’t talk to him. It was then that I also decided to undergo an endometrial ablation. This is the process where they cauterize the endometrium – the lining of your uterus. Before the procedure, I was so anemic from severe blood loss from heavy periods that I was passing out.

After the ablation, I felt I was back in control. Not only did I suddenly have instant birth control, I had a newfound confidence and thought I would prance into my 50’s with youth and vitality. Passing out from anemia and passing clots the size of livers was terrifying and I was relieved and thankful it was over. (Side note – I had to find a hospital that wouldn’t anesthetize me – a paranoid stipulation, but I actually did and the alternative cocktail was quite delightful!). So after all that, how could it get any worse? And really, how bad could this “menopause” be?? “I got this”, I said to myself. And then I turned 50.

The Muffin Top and Air Conditioning

It wasn’t until I started experiencing REAL hot flashes that I realized it was a real menopausibility that I was indeed changing. And the muffin top I always scoffed at (not gonna happen to me!) appeared overnight. Total flab spillage. I was horrified. And then depressed. And that’s when the AC stayed on 365 days a year.

It was hard to shake my depression. I stopped exercising and my body turned into something resembling an egg. With a chicken neck. And wrinkles. “Who is this old bag looking back at me in the mirror?” I often thought. Also, had my ability to sleep through the night disappeared somewhere alongside my youth???

HRT or Hormone Replacement Therapy

My depression and anxiety resulted in me seeking anti-depressants from my doctor. I felt old, fat and was losing my hair. What I actually walked out with was HRT. I did not agree with HRT and knew of the cancer risks. But I was desperate and filled the prescription.

I started sleeping again. Through the night. My hair was fuller and no sudden, overwhelming feeling of body temperature fluctuation. And vaginal dryness was no longer. HRT restored my youth and happiness. For a very short period of time.

The Ketogenic Lifestyle

As I write this, I realize that I’ve always discredited HRT but I think it may have helped me discover the ketogenic lifestyle. And of course, Mikhaila Peterson. Here’s why:

  • Rubbing synthetic hormones on my skin always felt risky and a bit like Russian Roulette.
  • Although I wanted to stop using the medication, I also didn’t want to feel like crap again.
  • I needed to find a way to feel as good as I did when taking HRT but without the synthetic hormones. But how?
  • I didn’t want to be an old fat lady resigned to this “stage of my life”
  • I’m stubborn
  • I’m a rebel
  • I like controversial things

As life would have it, while at my crossroads with HRT and menopause, I stumbled across Mikhaila Peterson after hearing her father tearfully praise her for discovering that carbohydrates were killing her. It was a long process for her that consisted of eliminating all the foods from her diet, one by one. And documenting her results.

She finally came to the conclusion that beef, salt, and water was healing her arthritis, depression and autoimmune disorders. Well, this certainly sparked my curiosity and I became obsessed. I mean, how could someone reverse their health issues with beef and water? My mother always told me to eat bread with meat to help with digestion. So this went totally against everything I knew and had been told. I had to know more.

And that’s when I changed my dietary lifestyle and got my life back on May 8, 2018. My ketogenic lifestyle saved me. And I finally stopped taking my hormones. I will always credit Miss Peterson for telling her story.

I started to ask WHY

This fueled my obsession to find out more and ask why. For example, why wasn’t I told that just eliminating dairy could make a profound difference for me? I uncovered lies and hidden truths about nutrition and food. I also discovered the real truth behind sugar.

A great book to learn more about this silent but deadly poison is Pure White and Deadly by John Yudkin. Sugar is the leading cause of obesity, diabetes, heart disease, and chronic inflammation. I was shocked to find it in so many of the foods I was eating.

It’s also cleverly disguised under different monikers so I was most likely consuming way more than I ever thought. But this was part of the deception. Nutrition labels can’t be trusted either, I discovered as they are not always factual. I felt betrayed by a system I trusted and realized I was addicted to sugar. I was being deceived by the man behind the curtain without even realizing it. But, alas, I digress. Back to menopause.

I Still Get Hot Flashes

So now that I’ve been in the state of nutritional ketosis for almost 2 years, being menopausal isn’t what it used to be. My depression has lifted, I like getting out of bed in the morning (bacon is a great motivator) and my head is clear. The fog has lifted.

Yes, I still get hot flashes sometimes but really only when I drink coffee (caffeine is a hormone disruptor) or have dairy. Truth be told, menopause was a bitch. But it forced me to change my dietary lifestyle so I’m grateful for that. I’m a fat burner, not a sugar burner. It’s incredible to wake up with clarity and vitality. It makes me feel like I’m 21 again, ready to take on the world!

With a little perseverance you can get things done, without the blind adherence that has conquered some.  So if you’re lost and on your own, you can never surrender.  And if your path won’t lead you home, you can never surrender.  And when the night is cold and dark… you can see light.  ‘Cause no one can take away your right to fight and to never surrender.”

– Corey Hart, 1985
Sandra Bruand
Sandra Braund

Sandra started her ketogenic lifestyle two years ago which naturally morphed into the carnivore way of life.  Bodybuilding after 50 just seemed like the next step and the natural thing to take on for this rebellious nature. Because…… why not???

Follow Our Adventure

We want to share our journey with you.

  • Monday’s – Posting progress photos and sending them to our email list (because we are not ready to show the world our wrinkles and rolls but we will share our progress to our email list every Monday)
  • Thursdays – IG Live Q & A (that’s Instagram if your old school like Carnivore H)
  • Daily – Food and workout pics on FB and IG

About us, we are just like you, women who are struggling with aging, hormones, changing family dynamics and how it sucks to grow old. What are your fears and desires? Where do you want or need accountability in your life?

This could be anything including food addictions, maintaining consistency, time management, or just being accountable for YOU.

Have you forgotten about yourself after all these years while you’ve been taking care of everyone else?

Stay in the loop. Join our email list. We will send you our progress and if you’d like, share your journey as well.

Our latest posts…

"Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom" - Aristotle

Discovery

I was asked recently about my daily routine and how it had changed with this bodybuilding adventure. I excitedly described the tracking of the macros, the weighing of the food, the daily weigh ins, etc, etc. The next question stopped me in my tracks. Actually, not the question itself, but my response TO the question. "Do you find it tedious", to which I replied "no", with no hesitation. I suddenly realized I had turned a corner. Without even knowing, my life had changed and had become all about bodybuilding, macros and the routine therein. In the blink of an eye. Now the intrigue was how did this happen, why and when? And thus, the dissection began.

In the Beginning

Looking back (and reading our early entries), we both can see that there was alot of fear surrounding this adventure. Hell bent and determined, we focused on this unfamiliar path only to discover far more than we ever anticipated. The physical challenge was expected. The psychological challenges were not. We were becoming physically stronger yet at the same time, becoming increasingly aware of our inner demons.

Flying the Coop

Let's take a step back for a moment.  Unresolved childhood trauma bears a heavy load and I pushed all of that waaaay down, especially when the children were born. Wanting to be the best parents that we could possibly be, our main focus and priority became the livelihood and well being of those wonderful souls.  Trauma was buried and memories were suppressed.

Fast forward 21 years. Finally having the time to enjoy our lives again, we started to do all the things WE wanted to do and picked up right where we left off, before kids.  Albeit a little worse for wear and slightly older but freedom was calling and the world was our oyster!

But wait. Why do I lack self confidence? Why does self doubt and anxiety plague my every move? I'm 53 for heaven's sake. I'm mature and have earned the right to be happy!

A Time to Heal

I can be so hard on myself when I start to have self doubt or nagging insecurities. Now that the focus has shifted, and I can concentrate on myself more, those unresolved issues have come back with a vengeance, demanding to be heard.  But I remain steadfast and I am preparing for some heavy duty battle.  Reminders from my husband about how hard I can be on myself helps ease that inner critic sometimes.  Support is important to me, but getting to the root of these issues is key.

Which brings us back to our bodybuilding competition. As we mentioned before, becoming physically stronger was a given. Having so much nagging self doubt and insecurities completely blindsided us. Having our inner demons show up to this party, at this stage of the game forced us to confront some issues sooner than later. Which really is a good thing.  Self improvement can be difficult but acceptance and inner peace gives us strength to overcome.

Strategies

I learned so much from creating my own personal strategies.  They helped me move forward.  Tracking macros, getting to the gym, writing in our journal was a routine I silently created to help keep me grounded. No longer a fear of implementing, I just did it. And tedious? No way. And that was the trigger that told me something positive had happened.

Full Circle

I feel like I have come full circle. What started on a whim between two friends, turned out to be a wondrous path to self discovery.  Achieving daily goals and seeing results feeds my self worth and sense of accomplishment. The beginning, the middle and the end are all part of this journey.  What we will learn along the way is a gift from the opportunity we've been given.  The road less traveled is not always marked with signs.  For us, it appeared as something obscure and unclear about it's direction.   We ventured down anyway and are finding our way, gaining muscle while we go!

"The unexamined life is not worth living" -Socrates

Sandra B.

Sandra started her ketogenic lifestyle two years ago which naturally morphed into the carnivore WOL.  Bodybuilding after 50 just seemed like the next step and the natural thing to take on for this rebellious nature. Because...... why not???

Chaos has not been a friend to me in life. Training for this competition has brought me some clarity about chaos that I didn’t even realize existed before.

Some folks can manage their chaos with better planning, time management and a decent working memory (executive function). Developing these skills is critical for people like me – Carnivore B. Chaos naturally follows some people more than others, and I may possibly be the President of Chaos Everywhere.

Mental Chaos and Learning Disabilities

I grew up in the 70’s and 80’s. Growing up, kids that suffered from inattention or impulsiveness and general disorderly conduct were considered (and dismissed) as having behavioral problems, not learning issues.

Thankfully, times have changed, and recognizing this behavior can be a symptom of ADHD. Unfortunately, many of those kids grew into adults that were never diagnosed and/or treated. I believe adults like me would have benefited greatly by learning to adopt these skills earlier in life. I say this because I lack certain skills like planning, time management and definitely focus (squirrel).

Disney Movie UP, 2009

From Chaos to Order

From Chaos to Order

Tracking macros and creating a routine that I can follow is difficult for me. That involves planning and focus and usually numbers. All that just makes my head explode.

Let me explain. I am that person that “wings it” and thrives under pressure. My modus operandi (MO) is arriving out of breath and always late (but I have been told that it I am always worth the wait ;).

Bodybuilding – Path to Something New

This bodybuilding competition has given me yet another path to self discovery. It hasn’t been easy for me to remain consistent with my macros and fitness routine but thankfully, I am stubborn. And committed.

Trying something new provided an opportunity for me to re-examine my capabilities and create new strategies to get things done!

A Sticky Solution to Chaos

What helps me stay on task is….sticky notes. These sticky squares are the saviour of my day. They are everywhere. In addition, I have lists and and several agendas. Did I mention white boards? These are some of my strategies to help organize my chaos and keep me in line.

Looking Forward

Training for any type of bodybuilding competition offers certain promises, certain rewards. Focus, discipline, and the courage to walk across a stage in high heels and a bikini.

I never dreamed it would be so helpful in giving me the discipline to organize my life. I am already winning and I don’t even have a spray tan yet.

Follow Our Adventure

We want to share our journey with you.

  • Monday’s – Posting progress photos and sending them to our email list (we are not ready to show the world our wrinkles and rolls but we will share our progress to our email list every Monday)
  • Thursdays – IG Live Q & A (that’s Instagram if your old school like Carnivore H)
  • Daily – Food and workout pics on FB and IG

About us, we are just like you, women who are struggling with aging, hormones, changing family dynamics and how it sucks to grow old. What are your fears and desires? Where do you want or need accountability in your life?

This could be anything including food addictions, maintaining consistency, time management, or just being accountable for YOU.

Have you forgotten about yourself after all these years while you’ve been taking care of everyone else?

Stay in the loop. Join our email list. We will send you our progress and if you’d like, share your journey as well.

Our latest posts…

Information Overload

We are definitely living in a world of confusion. The internet has allowed information to flow into our minds as quickly as it takes to type in how does…… Like Marshall McLuhan said “the medium is the message”. What am I getting at and what does this all mean? Read on friends.

Insight

Good old Marshall McLuhan and his insight. I have never forgotten that book, Understanding Media and the Extensions of Man. In a nutshell, don’t dismiss how powerful the device as to which we are receiving our information is.

Manipulation is key and so is the dependence on our ignorance. When you read something, stop to figure out how it made you feel. Angry? Sad? Peaceful? Did it resonate with you? Take a moment to stop and wonder why. And thus, your journey into sifting through conflicting and hypocritical information will begin. Don’t be lost in a world of confusion!

Who do you trust?

You. That’s who. Only you can decide whether you can trust the information or the people as to whom the information is being delivered. Do your research and if something doesn’t make sense to you, compare information and make sure you understand the essence of that one particular word – it can make all the difference.

For example, the word “studies”. Did you know that this word is used by the medical community and their media deliverer (whatever that might be) so effectively that the mass population just assumes that “it must be true”.

Long Form Discussion

Youtube and podcasts have brought us a wonderful platform in which people can discuss freely (for the most part) their knowledge and have an excellent debate about controversial issues. Free speech without a political agenda (agenda setting in the media) provides a truly insightful discussion that isn’t marred by any outside influences.

These are known as long-form discussions. This helps you to think as well and make the proper decisions for yourself. Think, don’t lose the ability to THINK for yourself. Your values determine your interest and we lose sight of this by the manipulation of the medium and the message.

So What Am I Getting At?

When I started my ketogenic journey, I was confused by the conflicting information and I didn’t know who to trust. It’s maddening when I hear/see the information that is just wrong AND the methodology of the media and it’s minions to deliver the wrong message to support their ideology and political agenda.

But it’s ok. If we stop to think and do our research correctly, you will find your way and the truth. This is all a journey. And it isn’t easy. And there are a lot of institutions banking on your dependence on familiarity and obliviousness.

What’s Next?

Our next post will delve into regenerative agriculture and engineered animal proteins. We will describe the difference between regeneratively raised livestock and those raised in a concrete factory eating corn, soy………….

Tell us what you think.

Are you confused about diet, nutrition, and the carnivore diet?

About Us

About us, we are just like you, women who are struggling with aging, hormones, changing family dynamics and how it sucks to grow old. What are your fears and desires? Where do you want or need accountability in your life? This could be anything including food addictions, maintaining consistency, time management, or just being accountable for YOU.

Have you forgotten about yourself after all these years while you’ve been taking care of everyone else? Stay in the loop. Join our email list. We will send you our progress and if you’d like, share your journey as well.

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